Before the book signing…
Beforehand, I’m PSYCHED. I have my business cards ready, my phone on hand for group selfies, and I paint this glorious picture in my head. I see myself walking into the signing, chatting to people while waiting, meeting so many new people, finding other book bloggers, exchanging business cards, making friends, and totally clicking with the author.
I imagine walking away with tons of group photos, pictures of me with the author, new friends to talk to on Twitter, and new blogs to check out.
I’m always wrong.
What actually happens…
I get there, sit down, and don’t talk to ANYONE unless they talk to me first. I’m awkward, shy, and literally can’t bring myself to strike up conversation.
Often times people come to book signings in groups and they’re all already chatting to one another. I feel awkward butting in to say ‘hi’. I don’t want to interrupt them or shove myself into their group.
If someone speaks to me first then I’m usually able to keep up a conversation really well. I often don’t come across as a shy person when someone else is the first to speak. I can keep a conversation going, I just can’t start one.
So in reality, most book signings involve me going, sitting, listening, talking to NO ONE, handing out ZERO business cards, and then meeting with the author for all of 2 seconds because I don’t know what to say to them either. I usually can’t even manage to blurt out that I’m a blogger, because I don’t want to sound like I’m bragging or shoving my blog down their throat (like “GO CHECK OUT MY AMAZING BLOG NOW!”).
I’m too shy
I’m an introvert, I’m anti-social, and I’m shy. I don’t mind being any of those things, but at book events, I kind of hate it. I wish I could be the person who uses bookish events as a way to meet new book lovers in their area. I wish I could use those events to network, make friends, and discover other bloggers. I wish I could actually find things to say to others other than, “Hi, loved your book, bye!”