In less than a year I’ll be done with university and moving on into the “real world”, so lately I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want to do with my life. I thought the best thing to do would be to sit down with some blogging BFFs and have a chat about it.
What do you want to do with your life?
For those of you who are students or not currently in a full time job/career, what do you want your career to be? Do you have a dream job? A plan? Something you’ve vaguely thought about?
Or if you’ve already graduated or you’re working, what job do you have? Do you like it? Is it what you thought you’d be doing?
How many of you have or want jobs that are related to books?
As for me… I thought I had a plan
Honestly, I always saw myself working for a company because I thought that’s what people do. They grow up, go to school, then get a job working for someone (and maybe or maybe not move up the ladder).
In the last year or two, I started envisioning myself at a web design company specifically. I was so happy because I felt like I’d narrowed down my life. Maybe I had a plan!
I was confident. I could envision my future and see myself somewhere. I didn’t know where, but I felt like I had a heading.
…Until that all went to shit.
A nine to five job scares the crap out of me
Up until recently, I had never worked a proper 9-5 job. I had worked a couple different part time jobs (with very flexible hours or shift work). But recently, I found myself in my first 9-5 job. I wasn’t there very long though, because I was overcome with a huge feeling of this is so not for me. I felt like I couldn’t breathe.
Part of me feels horrible for thinking this because so many people (most people..) work 9-5 jobs and they suck it up, or some of them love it… so why can’t I? But all I could think about was how restricted I felt. I can’t imagine this being the rest of my life:
- Wake up at 8 (if I’m lucky) to get to work at 9.
- Arrive at work at 9 and have my boss tell me what to do.
- Work on projects for someone else all day.
- Leave work at 5.
- Maybe arrive at home at 5:30 or 6.
- Cook dinner.
- Take a shower.
- Maybe it’s 8pm now, so I have about 3 hours to read or do whatever.
Would that be my life? Three hours of freedom? Even if I’m doing something I love that just sounds horrible to me. It’s like working just so I can live, but my whole state of living is just working…
Although the life of a freelancer comes with huge ups and downs (uncertainty, instability, potential dry periods, etc.), it feels like freedom. I love being able to pick and choose my own projects and work wherever I want, whenever I want. I can wake up at noon and work until 2am. I can work at Starbucks, at home in my pajamas, or on the beach in Mexico.
Yes I have “bosses” (clients), and yes I do have to get work done. But being able to pick and choose and directing myself puts a whole other spin on that life.
I’m still unsure about whether or not this is something I could pull off. Right now it’s working extremely well for a part time job while I’m at university. But can I convert that into a career?
I have doubts and fears.. but right now the idea of being stuck in a 9-5 job scares me even more.
I wonder how many authors (or aspiring authors) feel this same way, because it seems like life as an author might be similar to life as a freelancer.